Thursday, December 29, 2011

2011 Art Calendar

I saw a few of my fav artists on Deviant Art putting these together for their work, so I decided to too! It's nice to see I've actually been creative this year!

January: a soft and spiritual start to a new year, a new adventure, filling up the dark sky with little dots of light as I go... a great metaphor for my healing journey and new start in Denver.
February: Serendipity aligned and I got to work with The Micros this year, a perfect job to keep me creative and working from home. I love working with the team and look forward to seeing where things go in 2012!
March: A brand new spark of magic in my life: My niece Emma Rose Madison Sanoja was born! I am totally mesmerized by her!
April: I began working on a series... that didn't go anywhere. I drew "The Fool" tarot and intended to do a full deck, but my subconscious is wrestling with whether or not I should spend my time with characters that aren't my own! But then I try to do my own and struggle to get inspired! Ah well.. we'll see when tarot card number two comes around.... Tarot has been a huge hobby of mine this year. Anyone want a reading!?
May: The royal wedding, sure was inspiring!? right!? I drew this my little pony with it's very own fascinator...
June: I had so much fun on my trip back to LA that I had to draw my Disnelyand Outfit... since I'm not much of a fashionista, the "outfit of the day" theme didn't carry on too much longer ...
July: This year I've been so inspired by the Girls Drawing Girls blog, and have been trying to keep up with lovely ladies to one day be a part of this blog! Nothing I love more than lovely girls being lovely.
August: This month I did good... I filled a page-a-day in my sketch book, to get the pencil mileage going. It was a good month but not a lot of completed works came from it... a great practice though!
September: I started the Squash n Sketch blog which has been a great way to keep the creative juices flowing. It is so much fun seeing all my old classmates post artwork to the different themes! This one was for the "kittehs" theme!
October: I'm always inspired by Halloween, so GREAT! My little sister Chrissy loves zombies, so I stepped away from the sickeningly cute and cuddly for this piece, and glad I did!
November: What a magical month. November was the start of a hugely wonderful and magical relationship with my boy, Matt. He makes my heart so happy!  I drew this picture for his birthday on Nov 3, which also is now our anniversary <3  ... ahhh amore!
December: Love stardust moose! I'm so glad I took on this task for a Christmas card. It is probably the most complete and intensive piece I did all year. Yay portfolio addition!

Looking forward to more creativity, magic, and wonder in 2012!!!!

Friday, December 23, 2011

Happy Hogswatch!

Drawn for the squash n sketch blog theme, Unhappy Holidays.
Death is such an amazing Protagonist in The Hogfather!
I did this in just an hour or so... a quickie for the blog!

Thursday, December 22, 2011

I want a Hippopotamus for Christmas!

Our fav song in the house since last Christmas has been the Christmas Hippopotamus song! Only made better by the video below.. the limited animation just makes me laugh!

I also did a couple of versions, playing with effects and colors... what do you like best?

White Christmas

We're almost there! And just in time too... we got over 6 inches of snow last night, ready for a white Christmas. Let's see how the ponies measured up....

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Stardust Moose ATTACK!

This giant masterpiece took me about 13 hours over a week to complete... so many details! I made it for my boyfriend who sent it out as a holiday e-card to his co-workers at Konami, the Yu-Gi-Oh! Team. They have a character called the stardust dragon to which I based all the design elements from after I constructed a basic moose figure... anyway, there is some internal joke about a moose that I'll leave for the secrets of forever.


(Here's a progression of the piece!)

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Random (but very important) Rules of Life

Elements of Harmony by CottonBoon

Great rules that make your day easier, your life better, and you more fabulous overall.

I like to follow the four agreements first...
1. Be Impeccable with your Word: Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using words to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.
 Be HONEST. ALWAYS. Your word is super powerful... the words you say really do manifest in your world, because what you speak is your truth. Pay attention to the words you use during the day and see how this correlates with what you see and how you feel as well.
2. Don’t Take Anything Personally
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.
3. Don’t Make Assumptions
Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness and drama. With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.
4. Always Do Your Best
Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse, and regret. This rule has been so helpful me to eliminate worry of future regret.

Then I like to follow that with a rule about what you say to anyone. This can be especially useful in dealing with the family during the holidays!
Before opening your mouth to say something... ask yourself...
1. Is it True? (capital T, don't say it if you think there's a chance it's not true...)
2. Is it Kind?
3. Is it Helpful? (or Necessary? I think this was said by Socrates..)
If it doesn't follow these three rules, it might be better to keep your trap shut.

Granted! There's no guaranteeing that others will follow these rules, so in that case, another Rule (LTD) is to Listen politely, say Thank you for your opinion, and then DO whatever the hell you want. That's important to remember. Don't let someone else's demons activate yours. You can sit in your perfect presence and see the other person as they are and say thank you and just be whoever the hell you know you are, without putting up any kind of fight. If you sit in your being and don't retaliate, their demons will fizzle into nothing faster than if you did, and then you can get on with making Merry for the holidays!
Remember, what other people do is THEIR karma, what you do is YOURS. In practicing these "rules", you'll spend so much less time with monkey mind in regaurds to other people, and instead be open and present to what truly IS, which is the brotherhood and warm-snuggly-ness of this happiest season of the year.

When in doubt.... ask yourself... what would a my little pony do?

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Tarot: Power

The Fourth Card in the Major Arcana has been "stalking" me, as described on the Tarotize blog... and I haven't really given it a chance to sink in and tell me what it needs to. I can do a little of that right now, but frankly, I think I'm too tired today to let anything sink in... it's going to have to process over the next few days or so.

A little background on this card. Traditionally "The Emperor", but in the two decks I use most often, they are "Authority" and "Power" and have come up often in both, especially paired with either the sixth card (The Lovers, or Love), or some other supporting emotion card in the cups series (The princess, prince, knight, queen, and king of cups, as well as Love Begins and The Heart Chakra in the psychic tarot).  At first I thought the warning was not to become to opressive or hot headed or egotistical involving a relationship, but now I feel the cups cards are an emotional support to my harnessing the power of the Emperor.

The Fool was given options by the Magician, and decided on one with help from the High Priestess. He learned how to develop it thanks to the Empress. Now it has reached as stage where he must find a way to manage it. How to do this? He approaches a great Emperor seated on a stone throne. The Fool is amazed by the way the Emperor is instantly, eagerly obeyed in every particular, at how well his Empire is run and organized. Respectfully, he asks the Emperor how it is he does this. And the Emperor answers: "Strong will and a solid foundation of laws and order. It's all very well," he explains to the Fool, "to be imaginative, creative, instinctual, patient; but to control one must be alert, brave and aggressive."
Ready now to lead and direct rather than be led, the Fool heads out with new purpose. 

Basic Tarot Meaning
The Emperor, as Aries, the Ram, naturally follows the Empress. On the one hand, he is Mars (the planet that rules Aries) to her Venus, her lover and compliment, father to her mother, civilization to her nature, imposed order to her artful creativity. He is the "All Father" giving his children the structure they need in their lives to help them become responsible adults.
Aries is also, however, the first sign of the Zodiac, metaphorically the "infant." Like an infant he is filled with enthusiasm, energy, aggression. He is direct, guileless and all too often irresistible. Unfortunately, like a baby he can also be a tyrant: impatient, demanding, controlling.
In the worst of circumstances, the Emperor is a despot, imposing his will capriciously on his subjects. In the best of circumstances, he signifies an intelligent, enthusiastic leader that everyone wants to follow, the great monarch of an orderly, lawful, thriving Empire.

What's interesting about the combo in the Goddess Deck is that Freyja is also the goddess of Love and Beauty. Hopefully the harnessing of power is toward a beautiful, productive future, though some part of me feels like the image of Galadriel freaking out when frodo offers her the ring could be true too. I have no idea what that means for me, but I feel most drawn to this Kingdom Hearts Emperor card ... the kid sitting there in the King's seat, not really sure what he is doing there or even if he wants that crown on his head. I'll sit with that for now and see what else comes up as we move forward.

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Strategic Placement...

This week's squash n sketch theme was Boobies... so my first thought went to wonderful cartoon strategic placement. When you can draw anything, you have to come up with creative ways not to show tooo much depending on who the audience is! =P  I took my inspiration from the Pastoral Symphony and drew some disney-ish girls.
Had to throw in a rainbow of course... it's kind of my thing.  Getting a little more comfortable with this style/ new technique but working some things out.  fun fun fun! Enjoy.

I'm going to go watch Thor, and his rainbow bridge. And pray that rainbow brite shows up in the DVD version.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011


A little bit of Rapunzel in this one, drawn for the Squash n Sketch blog theme "Hairbrush". Tried a new technique today with the chalk, I liked it much better than my line, and then adding very subtle line at the end works... tho it is hard to edit where exactly the lines should go. I'll play around with this technique a little more!

Friday, November 4, 2011

Crazy or Divine? That's a thin line...

Matt and I met at the SIGGRAPH conference we volunteered for in summer 2010. We got along really well, but nothing came of it because we live on opposite sides of the globe. However, thanks to the magic of the interwebs, we have stayed in touch and on my birthday (Oct 11) he made me a little video. He got all dressed up in a shirt and tie and filmed himself telling jokes and saying anything to make me smile.  Since then we've been chatting every day, and have had a few skype dates. He lives in Frankfurt, right now, so that's even a little further than the UK but I guess over the internet it doesn't matter.  

He makes me smile, our conversation flows so easily, and seeing his face on line just makes me so happy. It's one of those things that not one single neuron in your rational brain can explain, but something in your gut just keeps saying "this is right".

Long story short, we decided yesterday that yes, in fact, this is a relationship, and trying to deny it or question it any longer was just impossible. The only way I can describe it is that it is totally like my life is now a runaway train. I can either fret with worry and fear, or I can enjoy the ride. Last night I started getting overwhelmed with the thought of having to somehow save money and travel and Windows ME and snowball thinking took over, making me feel worthless again for not being able to give everything I want to... what's going to happen? how is this going to work? what am i going to do?

I did my prayers, meditation, EFT, and finally relaxed into what was happening. When I did... something very strange happened. I'm not really sure if I was laughing or crying... maybe it was both, but I just sat there... cry-laughing for a good half an hour, realizing "What in the good earth makes me think that I have EVER had any control over any of this?! Everything that has happened this last year has beeen a complete and total miracle, happening DESPITE all my doubts and fears! WHO on EARTH am I to think that I have ANY say in what is happening!" I just was totally flabberghasted by the humour of it all. The song "Jesus take the wheel" came into my brain and I started laughing even harder. I threw up my hands and said "YEP It's YOURS ! It's always been Yours! I'm just here for the ride!"

I continued to get ready to finally go to bed and in my brain I just had the happiest, most relaxing thought, "Just be. Stop doing. Just be. We've got this."

Thinking I wouldn't be able to sleep for hours, as soon as my head hit the pillow I was fast asleep and had the most refreshing 7 hours I have had in a very long time.

I want to end with this quote from Elizabeth Lesser that always reminds me to shut the hell up and just sit and be for once.

"I made the ritual bow to the Buddha statue and noticed his half-smile, his round belly, his relaxed shoulders. His expression was so kind, as if he was saying "there there. come. sit and rest. You don't have to try so hard. You don't have to rush anything. Take a seat and see what happens."

and then I saw one more quote today that seemed very fitting. Another great reminder:

"Do not anticipate trouble, or worry about what may never happen. Keep in the sunlight." - Benjamin Franklin

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Rabbit Rabbit

Wishing you all a lucky November.

Been talking to someone special who really makes me happeh.  The cards have been lining up in very serendipitous ways, and I have a big smile on my face.

Monday, October 31, 2011

Happy Halloween!!!

wowowow! I made TWO halloween drawings this year! YAY!

Well I really wanted to get the Devil Tarot Card done, so far I have only done one card this year LOL! If I do two a month I can get the major arcana done in a year, but we'll see if that happens. OH WELL.  Tarotize blog has a great interpretation of the Devil Card which I really agree with. To me it is more about fears that hold us back. The traditional tarot represents "the chain that is freely worn", which I originally interpreted as "you deserve the bad that you get because you asked for it" which doesn't jive with my soul, so instead, I realize now the Devil is more  of a humorous and helpful card that helps our fears just melt away.  I have spent a lot of time studying dreams and being able to be conscious in them, and in the dreams I am actually able to face my fear, the fear ends up being something really lovely  or lovable, or at least really harmless.  The devil doesn't represent the situation, it represents your own willingness to be fearful of it.  You can be fearful of a skeleton for what it represents, but you know, upon touching it, that it will simply crumble and have no more influence than a rock or stick.

ANYWAY HAPPY HALLOWEEN! I love this holiday and this time of the year. Enjoy!

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Hello from Denver!

A little video I did of the changing leaves and first snow... enjoy!

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

happpppeh Halloweeeeeen

I texted my lil sister this morning to ask her what my halloween picture should be this year and she suggested a little zombie eating the brains out of a pumpkin. I like the concept! Had some issues with the wacom but overall a good exercise!  I love halloween.

Friday, October 21, 2011

Roxy is Queen

Our latest squash n sketch post was "If my pet were human..."
My sister's dog Roxy is quite spoiled, as I let her sit on my leopard print snuggie on my bed. She always reminded me of the Queen of Sheba. Here she is!

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

The Real World

In my time on this planet, I've had a few people mention to me "just wait until you get to the REAL world". I wonder which world they think I'm living in? I smile and am relieved with "No Such Thing" comes on the radio:

"Welcome to the real world", she said to me
Take a seat
Take your life
Plot it out in black and white
Well I never lived the dreams of the prom kings
And the drama queens
I'd like to think the best of me
Is still hiding
Up my sleeve

They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
But something's better
On the other side

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above

So the good boys and girls take the so called right track
Faded white hats
Grabbing credits
Maybe transfers
They read all the books but they can't find the answers
And all of our parents
They're getting older
I wonder if they've wished for anything better
While in their memories
Tiny tragedies

I am invincible
As long as I'm alive

I just can't wait til my 10 year reunion
I'm gonna bust down the double doors
And when I stand on these tables before you
You will know what all this time was for 

And here is a great cover:

And here is an image because there should always be an image. It made my heart happy.
This is Warm and Real and Bright by koinogenki

Friday, October 14, 2011

super kuwaii

Hello Blog. I have been so all over the place.
I turned 27 on Tuesday and got a super special card from my parents that made me cryle (smile + cry).
My parents always know how to make me feel special. They got me this uber special Wizard of Oz ruby slippers necklace that I just adore.
When I was a kid, my sisters and I would always BEG for sparkly red shoes, and when I got a pair, I loved them so much that I wore them to bed. The Judy Garland Oz adaptation is spectacular, but as I kid I was more struck by the film Return to Oz which featured the wicked witch's minions as lanky giants with wheels for hands and feet, and evil rocks that came to life.  So the annual family hiking trip to Yosemite became a super-adventure when I was convinced all the rocks we hiked over were about to chomp off my feet. Wearing these ruby slippers around my neck will ever-protect me from rocks nipping at my toes.

It was amazing to hear from my friends all over the world, sending me love and well wishes over the interwebs. I had happy birthdays from England, Germany, France, New Zealand, Taiwan, Australia, New York, Los Angeles, it is really mind boggling and wonderful.

My life as of late has been crazy as I've been working with one of my BFF's  Natalie on illustrating a children's book. The deadline is early next week so I think I'll be able to rebound then.

So in the mean time... I wanted to share this piece today that I found on Deviant Art...
Game Girl by Sakimichan
 It makes me happy =D.


Sunday, October 9, 2011

Strengthened by Life

Tarot Strength VIII by SavingGraces

I have been so exhausted, and in reading my prayers today came across the line "May you be strengthened by life" and had to pause...
The thought "Strengthened by Life"... seemed so strange to me... the thought of living a life in which life actually gives me strength, vitality, oomph... that is what I want. So today I prayed and prayed and prayed... please God (or the Universe, or Science, or my Conscious, or my dog! anyone!) please show me how to gain strength from life. Please show me how life can be lived without depleting me, whithering me, exhausting me, please show me how to live a life that increases my energy and vitality, please show me this life! Please help me be STRENGTHENED by life."

I will continue to meditate on this, and continue to live from a place of Love. It has been challenging this week to find the balance between Love and being taken advantage of with my work, but I have to Trust in what is truly right, Trust in balance, and remember what is really important.

8 Strength by Nendil

VIII Strength by Odessa

As long as time endures, and as long as sentient beings exist, may I be a source of Love that Heals the miseries of this world.

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Oh Hello There

I know it has been a while since I have properly blogged and so I have created a piece just for today. Last night I had a great dream where I was just really relaxed and happy. A cute prince of some kind of luxury tropical island proposed to me with a giant rainbow diamond.. I mean I know, it is like the ultimate cliche, but the important thing is that I had a good dream and I drew something, OK!? (not cliche: the diamond had inside of it a claymation slug with googly eyes. My subconscious had to make sure that humour was not lost on this dream).
I did this very quickly in photoshop as to not get too obsessed with making something perfect. Pencil mileage is more important at this point than perfection! wewt!
And if you haven't checked it out yet, make sure to check out the new collaborative art blog I started, where this week's theme is Dreams and Nightmares. This is not my submission for that, as it's not high brow enough to share with my fellow artists, but whatever, at least I'm in the theme.

Pascal Campion made this piece today which echos my wonderful dream. So beautiful!

I have been busy working on an illustration project that I cannot share with anyone yet, but that just means there will be more to come at a later time! Toodaloo!

Saturday, September 17, 2011

good advice

If we think only of ourselves, forget about other people, then our minds occupy very small area. Inside that small area, even tiny problem appears very big. But the moment you develop a sense of concern for others, you realize that, just like ourselves, they also want happiness; they also want satisfaction. When you have this sense of concern, your mind automatically widens. At this point, your own problems, even big problems, will not be so significant. The result? Big increase in peace of mind. So, if you think only of yourself, only your own happiness, the result is actually less happiness. You get more anxiety, more fear.
Dalai Lama

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Please Be Advised

Please be advised that one of my favorite events of the year has been scheduled for 11/29...
The Victoria's Secret Fashion Show!!

Designs courtesy of Victoria's Secret.

I am excited . Also I will accept merchandise and/or store credit for this endorsement. 

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Drawering! Tygra loves Nyan Kitteh!

Hmm.. how many places on the web do my drawings need to be posted on?
Tumblr, DeviantArt, Facebook, blog....

=P This was made for the Squash N Sketch collaborative blog. Enjoy! (and follow us! Lots of really fantastic artists and peoples near and dear to my heart posting art!? What could be better?!)

Ready for some FOOTBALLL!!!??!?

There's finally a slight crisp in the air, you know what that means right? FOOTBALL!!
... this is the right team, right?

I know who I'm rooting for!!!


Thursday, September 1, 2011

Happy Birthday Mama Bird!

Happy Birthday to my Mama, my inspiration, my support, the woman who taught me how girls run the world. Love you Mama Bird!!!!